Thursday, March 24, 2011

Crap!

Crap crap crap CRAP!

I'm finishing up the OP program tomorrow, but last night I had this revelation that the work just wasn't DONE yet, so I called my clinician and left a message about going to the evening IOP program...turns out my insurance won't cover it. BUT she gave me a bunch of other options...and they're ALL for EDs!!!!!!! WAH!!!!

And I'm so desperate for HELP that I'm almost willing to go, even though a) I don't think that I even HAVE an ED and b) I DON'T want to fix things in the eating department yet (20 more pounds, remember??)

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!

2 comments:

  1. Just try to make the decision with a calm mind. Take a few deep breaths, take a nice long nap, and meditate on it a bit. I'm sure you'll make the right decision for you, whether that's recovery or not. Stay strong, love. You can do this <3

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  2. Thank you so, so, so much. You have no idea how calming it was to read that/know that someone's out there who cares.

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