Tonight, I am skipping dinner. I am doing it because I deserve it, and because it makes me feel right again. I will not engage in mastication.
I will not snack, either. Snacking is the deadly enemy that ruins it all, because once you start, you can't stop.
I wish it wasn't so late, or I'd seek out a diet coke.
It can't be bad to miss dinner, anyway. You're not supposed to eat after 7 pm anyway, and it's already 10. So there. Justified. I should just brush my teeth and go to bed.
Tomorrow, we start anew in our plan, trying to avoid food. It's a problem, because my boss buys us lunch on Thursdays, but perhaps I can get away with having a salad tomorrow and let that suffice for the day. Like I said, I don't NOT eat, I just try not to.
I just wish I had someone to talk with me and support me in my efforts. I know this is sort of a sick thing to do, but it's nice to play at having control in at least one aspect of life, you've got to understand that. I do not approve of this way of life, but I do live it. ...From time to time.
I hope I don't give in. I want to get away with this for a month. At least.
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