Food Is The Enemy

I long ago decided that food is the enemy.
I'm looking for support in my attempts not to eat.
I am not a skinny person, and never will be, even if I starve myself for decades.  Skinny is not the goal.  I like the purity you feel when you don't eat, the control it gives you in your life.
I go back and forth between eating out of control and controlling what I eat, and right now we're in a controlling phase, but it's really lonely. You can't talk to your best friend and tell him/her that you aren't eating right now, please help, because they'll tell you that you need help.
I'm not anorexic.  I can't NOT eat at all, but I can control what goes in to a certain extent, make it as minimal as possible.
If you think you can be supportive, please feel free to comment and I'll try to get back to you as soon as I can.  I just need a friend in this, or I'm going to give in again and start eating like a monster...