Monday, April 4, 2011

Am I supposed to be doing homework?

I AM supposed to be doing homework! I even checked out books and everything! At least it's interesting homework, you know? I'm writing a paper on one of the songs from the New York Dolls' first album, so I can't complain too much (but posting is just so much more INTERESTING than what I'm supposed to be doing, you know??)

This "quitting smoking" thing? Not doing it for me. I have cut back significantly (like, only 1-2/day or so--I know, I know, you're not supposed to smoke while you're on the patch. Well you know what? SUCK IT, medical profession! The patch does SHIT for me!) I'm REALLY afraid I'm going to gain weight from it (apparently, cigarettes make you burn calories slightly faster--who knew??) but poverty is poverty, and I can't keep up with the price. I know that as soon as I have the money to kill, I'll be right back to smoking, but hopefully much, much less.

So, I finally have some leeway to resupply, and I'm going shopping this afternoon. So far on the list? Same old, same old. Carnation Breakfast Essentials, skim milk, diet coke, gatorade, and maybe non-fat yogurt.

Now, I hate food. Food is, after all, the enemy. But I'm so bored of the same old shit. I want to mix it up somehow, but I can't!! I know these foods are safe, and I know how to handle them, and I don't know about other foods! ...How dull.

Today is turning out well, despite the dearth of diet coke and gatorade. I'm a little shaky, but then I'm ALWAYS a little shaky.

I will stay strong this evening, and make it a full on GOOD DAY! (I hope you have one, too!)

1 comment:

  1. I've "quit" smoking about five different times now, so I know how hard it is. You can do it, though :)

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