My therapist says the body has a way of adapting to survive, that hunger is by nature adaptive, and therefore it's natural to become obsessed with food when you start starving yourself.
I hate it.
Let me just fade away in PEACE. I do not want to be tormented with thoughts of disgusting food, taunting me with what I shouldn't have and don't WANT. It's a cruel trick to think that you want something that you don't.
That being said, I'm obsessed with food. It's all I think about all day long--what I'm going to eat, what I'm NOT going to eat, whether I'll write about it, how hungry I am, how BEAUTIFUL that hunger is, etc etc etc. The thoughts won't leave me in peace, and peace is all I ever wanted...
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