I was stuck at 160, 163 for a good long while. Am I going to be stuck at 140, 143 for the same amount of time? What changed, so that I lost all that weight so quickly??? And more importantly, will I still be able to lose weight now that I'm STUCK on a 'recovery' track?
Important questions...
Showing posts with label weight. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight. Show all posts
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
Today, I am OLD
Still less than 30, and yet...so old.
I think I have to give up on the calorie counting today--my gf is making pancakes (and I bought the darling flowers!), and I'm going out for dinner with a bunch of friends (=no hiding my eating today...)
I can't believe how OLD I am!! And how immature I still am...I can't believe I broke in this year while still restricting. You'd think I could give it up, but no...
In other news, with clothes off this morning, I was 143--I'm in the "normal" range for my height finally! (I have to wonder how much of it's water weight, though...)
Also, all the suggestions I got for what to "eat" from the Ana/Mia Chronicles proved really useful. I'm loving it! I feel like I'm eating like a king, but it's still so few calories!
Anyway, short post. Back to having my birthday ;)
I think I have to give up on the calorie counting today--my gf is making pancakes (and I bought the darling flowers!), and I'm going out for dinner with a bunch of friends (=no hiding my eating today...)
I can't believe how OLD I am!! And how immature I still am...I can't believe I broke in this year while still restricting. You'd think I could give it up, but no...
In other news, with clothes off this morning, I was 143--I'm in the "normal" range for my height finally! (I have to wonder how much of it's water weight, though...)
Also, all the suggestions I got for what to "eat" from the Ana/Mia Chronicles proved really useful. I'm loving it! I feel like I'm eating like a king, but it's still so few calories!
Anyway, short post. Back to having my birthday ;)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
145
I don't think this is what she meant to happen, but my therapist had a little bet-type thing going with me that if I checked with health services (or my doctor, whatever) about healthy weight ranges, my goal weight wouldn't be in it....but it's only 15 lbs below the topmost point of the range at 130. So, I've written 145 on my hand and it is staying there until I reach it (145 being the "healthy" zone.) I am doing a liquid day tomorrow, and then maybe limited food the day after, and then another liquid day, and I am going to continue until I get to 145 or I die. Whichever comes first. (Or, if recent experience is any indicator, until I completely lose my will power and go back to binging without purging, fatty mcfatterton that I am...) I'm hoping that by avoiding food only one day at a time, then it'll all be more manageable. I can handle this. I can get to 145, and I can do it FAST. Dammit.
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