Today is one of 'em. No matter what, all I can see is my *fat*--It's EVERYWHERE! And there's no place to freak out, because no one else gets it, so you guys get the brunt of it (sorry!)
I cried after lunch today. It's just SUCH a traumatizing experience, and I can't even explain why! There's just so much FOOD! Snacks, I can handle, but meals? No es bueno. And I can't eat it all, so I have to deal with everyone staring, and THEN I have to deal with that damn Ensure (I'm SO SICK of them, and it's only my third day of drinking them!) All the calories! All that FOOD, just sitting in my belly! And all the food I wasted...*sigh* The guilt is endless, and I can't deal with it.
And I'm fat. Fat, fat, fat, FAT....
Hey, don't give up yet..
ReplyDeleteI'm probably not the best person to give out advice here because I've obviously never been there, but all I can say is don't give up.
Just stay positive and know that you can do this! you'll get through...
Stay motivated and chase your happiness <3
Good luck,
xxx