I think...I think that I find not eating comforting. I don't know why. But I've had the most relaxing past few days possible, and I haven't been eating/at the recovery program.
It makes me want to quit, knowing that I would have this kind of peace in my life if I just stopped going, but I know that peace wouldn't be permanent. I want PERMANENT peace in my life...or at least something long term.
But Oh! It was sooooo nice not having to worry about dinners and recording what I have/haven't eating, marking 'Behaviors' down on a piece of paper to quantify for the insurance companies...It was nice to be able to not eat in peace. I miss that. I do...
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