Rainy Day...

Rainy days make me want to do nothing. OK, maybe they make me want to cuddle up and write bad poetry. There is that.

I finally finished my month-overdue essay...and I feel all empty and purposeless now. Dunno what to do with myself (so obviously, I post!)

I'm having mixed feelings. It's almost the time where my insurance will go through to get me into the ED program. Thing is? I don't want to lose the ED. I...like it. I also hate it, but the pros outweigh the cons right now.

I don't know what to doooooooooooo......so confused! I want to lose my other bad habits, but this one? This one's comfy. And adaptable to all situations--if I eat too much with friends, I make up for it later, y'know? AND I don't want to get fatter! I'm finally starting to see some definition. Bones are beginning to eke their way out. I have a GOAL I need to reach!

But I put all this work into getting into this dumb program.

*SIGH* I just don't know...