Ultimate Fatty

Almost my worst fears were realized over Easter--I say "almost" because only time will tell if I've completely lost all ability to restrict...

I ate way, way, WAY too much food, and drank too many calories, and want to keep going, even though I feel like a fatty, stuffed sausage, full individual who's probably gained TEN POUNDS--wahhhhh!

I'm SO freaked out! Someone help me to get back on track! Where has my motivation gone??

It seems to me that I have two options for getting back on track. I can choose an arbitrary calorie limit for the day/week, and go for that, or I could choose an arbitrary calorie limit and go for a liquid diet for a few days (problem: not very satisfactory...but then...that's the idea, right??)

I dunno. I need advice!

Easter

I'm really worried about Easter weekend, and the few days thereafter. See, Easter is a "food holiday" for us--we're Orthodox Christians, which means that we basically spend Lent not eating: meat, dairy, eggs, and fish (or wine or alcohol in general.) Now, *I* didn't adhere to that, but my family did, and there is going to be so. Much. Food. I don't even know what to do. And it's not just going to be food, no--it's going to be *delicious* food, like tsoureki, and sirnaya pascha, and everything delicious you can think of.

Now, normally I would just be plain old worried, but with my massive EATING streak of late, I'm extra SUPER worried. And I won't even be able to puke because I'll be at someone else's house. :/

I don't know what to DO! (And people wonder why I'm so obsessed with food--it's all my religion's fault, haha...)

I'm going to gain so much weight, unless I figure out a way to keep the eating problem in check. Help?

In other news, my grandmother said that I'm getting awfully skinny today (I'm not--I'm ballooning up! Rapidly!) and she asked if I was eating meals, like wth protein and vegetables. I think she was concerned...

FEED BIG BERTHA!

I. Want. Food.

(more than that, I want caloried drinks. ::SIGH::)

I have eaten so many calories today, it makes me want to cry. And worse? I want to eat more. I have zero control right now, and that scares the hell out of me. What a fatty...

(Any advice? PLEASE?!?)

The "F"s and Getting Back on Track

The "F"s--fatty and failure. And I don't just mean failure in terms of diet--my homework this week is positively *slaying* me! Allophones and phonemes and complementary pairs: I thought I understood it until I started this homework...blargh! But enough of that whining.

I am a fatty. I spent the ENTIRE weekend eating egregious amounts of food, and I gained the weight to prove it. BUT I'm hoping that I'll stay on track today, and get things back in order...and eventually make it so 145 isn't just water weight lost, but TRUE weight lost.

Hope things are going well with you, chickees!

Urgh...

So, I was up reeeeally late last night finishing a final, and overslept this morning, which puts me in the awkward position of being awake with nothing to do before the next train comes. So I went to the station, and to kill time, I figured I'd buy something from Dunkies--NOT COFFEE! I can't *stand* their coffee--it's for emergencies only, see? So, I got...a breakfast sandwich. I feel. So Fat. Bad move, anonymous. Bad move. I've never wanted to puke so badly before in my life. And it's worse, because now I'm guaranteed three full meals today. *sigh* Thursdays, you suck. I will try to minimize the damage, though. Yes. That's what I'll do.
Gross, gross, gross. I can't believe I did that! What a morning...