I went from one city to another for Easter. Let me tell you, it is nice to escape (even if the weather here is crappier than at home.)
Ever since I went to the hospital the second time, my family's been edgy, worried, and suspicious--I feel like I can't live my life, you know? So it's nice to get away from the worried family to spend time with the less-worried family.
The family at home is starting to catch on to my wayward eating habits, too. I try to avoid being home at meal times as much as possible, but even then, they notice that you're getting skinnier (and never with joy! Always the tone of concern!! What's up with that??? I mean, come ON! I was practically OBESE before, and now I'm within a healthy range. Chill out, dudes!)
Which makes me wonder if I should buy new clothes that fit--is it worth it? I mean, am I going to just gain all the weight I just lost back?? (I hope I never, ever, ever, EVER weigh as much as I did again!) But the fact is, most my my clothes just don't fit right any more...time to replace them? Who knows.
OK, and now I really SHOULD go do some homework and stop obsessing over food and weight. Happy holidays to all!
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Saturday, April 23, 2011
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Being home is hard
Today started out so well, but then drizzled into oblivion as the day progressed.
I got donuts for my fam, intending to eat one (and only one) as my meal until the dinner I know I'd be forced to eat rolled around, so I ate it...but there is SO MUCH FOOD available here, it was a sick gorgefest. I ate bacon (BACON!!) and lunch meat, and who even knows what all else and I felt like I couldn't stop myself. Not to mention that my mother's cooking, so the whole house smells like delicious--how is one supposed to prevail under such conditions, I ask you?? And THEN, my brother took me out to lunch, where I tried to be VERY good (miso soup and seaweed salad), but now I just feel bloated and ill. Too. Much. Food. (Though my calorie tracker says that I've only eaten about 700 calories, so maybe I'm still OK...)
And I KNOW there's going to be a family dinner, which I'll have to eat. ::sigh::
I'm never going to win.
To forestall any further slips, though, I stocked up on diet cokes, yes indeedy! So maybe that will help au futur.
(Good luck to me! HELP!)
I got donuts for my fam, intending to eat one (and only one) as my meal until the dinner I know I'd be forced to eat rolled around, so I ate it...but there is SO MUCH FOOD available here, it was a sick gorgefest. I ate bacon (BACON!!) and lunch meat, and who even knows what all else and I felt like I couldn't stop myself. Not to mention that my mother's cooking, so the whole house smells like delicious--how is one supposed to prevail under such conditions, I ask you?? And THEN, my brother took me out to lunch, where I tried to be VERY good (miso soup and seaweed salad), but now I just feel bloated and ill. Too. Much. Food. (Though my calorie tracker says that I've only eaten about 700 calories, so maybe I'm still OK...)
And I KNOW there's going to be a family dinner, which I'll have to eat. ::sigh::
I'm never going to win.
To forestall any further slips, though, I stocked up on diet cokes, yes indeedy! So maybe that will help au futur.
(Good luck to me! HELP!)
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